登陆注册
15706700000014

第14章 CHARITABLE REMINISCENCES(1)

As the new Benevolent Association has had the effect of withdrawing beggars from the streets, and as Professional Mendicancy bids fair to be presently ranked with the Lost Arts, to preserve some records of this noble branch of industry, I have endeavored to recall certain traits and peculiarities of individual members of the order whom I have known, and whose forms I now miss from their accustomed haunts. In so doing, I confess to feeling a certain regret at this decay of Professional Begging, for I hold the theory that mankind are bettered by the occasional spectacle of misery, whether simulated or not, on the same principle that our sympathies are enlarged by the fictitious woes of the Drama, though we know that the actors are insincere. Perhaps I am indiscreet in saying that I have rewarded the artfully dressed and well-acted performance of the begging impostor through the same impulse that impelled me to expend a dollar in witnessing the counterfeited sorrows of poor "Triplet," as represented by Charles Wheatleigh. I did not quarrel with deceit in either case. My coin was given in recognition of the sentiment; the moral responsibility rested with the performer.

The principal figure that I now mourn over as lost forever is one that may have been familiar to many of my readers. It was that of a dark-complexioned, black-eyed, foreign-looking woman, who supported in her arms a sickly baby. As a pathological phenomenon the baby was especially interesting, having presented the Hippocratic face and other symptoms of immediate dissolution, without change, for the past three years. The woman never verbally solicited alms. Her appearance was always mute, mysterious, and sudden. She made no other appeal than that which the dramatic tableau of herself and baby suggested, with an outstretched hand and deprecating eye sometimes superadded. She usually stood in my doorway, silent and patient, intimating her presence, if my attention were preoccupied, by a slight cough from her baby, whom I shall always believe had its part to play in this little pantomime, and generally obeyed a secret signal from the maternal hand. It was useless for me to refuse alms, to plead business, or affect inattention. She never moved; her position was always taken with an appearance of latent capabilities of endurance and experience in waiting which never failed to impress me with awe and the futility of any hope of escape. There was also something in the reproachful expression of her eye which plainly said to me, as I bent over my paper, "Go on with your mock sentimentalities and simulated pathos; portray the imaginary sufferings of your bodiless creations, spread your thin web of philosophy, but look you, sir, here is real misery! Here is genuine suffering!" I confess that this artful suggestion usually brought me down. In three minutes after she had thus invested the citadel I usually surrendered at discretion, without a gun having been fired on either side. She received my offering and retired as mutely and mysteriously as she had appeared. Perhaps it was well for me that she did not know her strength. I might have been forced, had this terrible woman been conscious of her real power, to have borrowed money which I could not pay, or have forged a check to purchase immunity from her awful presence. I hardly know if I make myself understood, and yet I am unable to define my meaning more clearly when I say that there was something in her glance which suggested to the person appealed to, when in the presence of others, a certain idea of some individual responsibility for her sufferings, which, while it never failed to affect him with a mingled sense of ludicrousness and terror, always made an impression of unqualified gravity on the minds of the bystanders. As she has disappeared within the last month, I imagine that she has found a home at the San Francisco Benevolent Association,--at least, I cannot conceive of any charity, however guarded by wholesome checks or sharp-eyed almoners, that could resist that mute apparition. I should like to go there and inquire about her, and also learn if the baby was convalescent or dead, but I am satisfied that she would rise up, a mute and reproachful appeal, so personal in its artful suggestions, that it would end in the Association instantly transferring her to my hands.

同类推荐
  • 太上戒经

    太上戒经

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。
  • 窑器说

    窑器说

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。
  • 泰州道中却寄东京故

    泰州道中却寄东京故

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。
  • The Way to Peace

    The Way to Peace

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。
  • The Golden Threshold

    The Golden Threshold

    本书为公版书,为不受著作权法限制的作家、艺术家及其它人士发布的作品,供广大读者阅读交流。
热门推荐
  • 中国文化博览1

    中国文化博览1

    本书可以帮助青少年朋友了解中国悠久的历史,了解中华民族自强不息、百折百挠的发展历程,了解各族人民对人类文明的卓越贡献,了解先辈们崇高的民族精神、民族气节和高尚的道德情操,了解到中华文化的博大精深。
  • 骰灵

    骰灵

    他的家乡是一个以星辰为信仰的大陆,他的家族是一个以守护为使命的族群,当他因宿命流离了十九年而又重新降临的时候,命运注定他会在神秘又遥远的星空里泛起灿烂的光芒。归来,征途,但最后陪在身边的终究还是……
  • 天脉神轮

    天脉神轮

    一代天骄,沦落凡尘!一路荆棘,铺就传奇!不平凡的人生之路,造就永世的传说!
  • 洛丽玛丝的幸福

    洛丽玛丝的幸福

    柒月上前,闻了闻花的香味,欣喜地睁开了眼睛,“哈~洛丽玛丝玫瑰。”柒月转身,眼底满满的幸福,“逸,还是你最懂我。”“当然,我可是你老公。”逸坏坏的笑着。柒月面色潮红,“恩~你讨厌。”“好啦,天色不早了,明天还要执行任务呢。”“恩。晚安。”柒月甜甜的笑着。“宝贝儿,晚~安~”逸俯身,在柒月光洁的额头上落下。蜻蜓点水般的一吻。谁也没看见,柒月那被浅紫色长发遮住的眸子,眼中写满了复杂,似是无奈,又是必然。逸,对不起,请原谅我的不辞而别。我和你,是不可能在一起的。柒月露出了凄美的笑容,身影渐渐升高,变得模糊。最后、消失。
  • 那年青春我们刚刚好

    那年青春我们刚刚好

    学霸。学渣,不良少年,校花,透明人,各型各色的老师,构成了我一整个青春,莫黎,那年在人群中看到你,就注定为你沉迷。张婧涵,今生终究是我欠你的。遇到你,我从未后悔,哪怕你眼里从未有我的影子。
  • 灵道尊

    灵道尊

    意外死亡的徐念被地摊淘来的玉佩带到了另一片新的世界,这里有强大的修士,新的世界徐念靠着金手指活的风声水起
  • 福妻驾到

    福妻驾到

    现代饭店彪悍老板娘魂穿古代。不分是非的极品婆婆?三年未归生死不明的丈夫?心狠手辣的阴毒亲戚?贪婪而好色的地主老财?吃上顿没下顿的贫困宭境?不怕不怕,神仙相助,一技在手,天下我有!且看现代张悦娘,如何身带福气玩转古代,开面馆、收小弟、左纳财富,右傍美男,共绘幸福生活大好蓝图!!!!快本新书《天媒地聘》已经上架开始销售,只要3.99元即可将整本书抱回家,你还等什么哪,赶紧点击下面的直通车,享受乐乐精心为您准备的美食盛宴吧!)
  • 婚恋:脱轨的女人

    婚恋:脱轨的女人

    一段办公室恋情,牵扯出一场欲望的沉浮。这是一场别开生面的美女盛宴。这又是一部真真实实的生活戏剧。越是真实,就越是可怕!
  • 神迹临尘

    神迹临尘

    永恒的生命禁地,神秘的死亡绝地,古老九世封灵......平凡少年身怀异血,披荆而上,一动斩万魔,一念诛仙尘,一怒焚天星河!叱咤星宇,大闹众界,弹指崛临神迹!
  • 深圳,一个穷孩子的中国梦

    深圳,一个穷孩子的中国梦

    一个普通年轻人,95年从内地来到深圳,刚到深圳就被骗,然后住城中村十元店,租房,直到找到稳定工作,工作过程中被卷入贪污案件,受审被抓,奋起而反抗,打官司自救。终获清白名誉。继而从新开始工作生涯,逐渐开始同别人合作创业,小获成功后骑车去西藏的人生经历。70年代,80年代普通打工人群的生存百态。他的经历侧面反应着社会发展过程中,年轻人的成长。