登陆注册
15422500000031

第31章 HOME SICKNESS (2)

He too, she knew, would strive to forget her, because of the pain she had caused him. She had heard him often boast of his power of putting any disagreeable thought far away from him. Then she penetrated farther into what might have been. If she had cared for him as a lover, and had accepted him, and this change in her father's opinions and consequent station had taken place, she could not doubt but that it would have been impatiently received by Mr. Lennox. It was a bitter mortification to her in one sense; but she could bear it patiently, because she knew her father's purity of purpose, and that strengthened her to endure his errors, grave and serious though in her estimation they were. But the fact of the world esteeming her father degraded, in its rough wholesale judgment, would have oppressed and irritated Mr. Lennox. As she realised what might have been, she grew to be thankful for what was. They were at the lowest now; they could not be worse. Edith's astonishment and her aunt Shaw's dismay would have to be met bravely, when their letters came. So Margaret rose up and began slowly to undress herself, feeling the full luxury of acting leisurely, late as it was, after all the past hurry of the day. She fell asleep, hoping for some brightness, either internal or external. But if she had known how long it would be before the brightness came, her heart would have sunk low down. The time of the year was most unpropitious to health as well as to spirits. Her mother caught a severe cold, and Dixon herself was evidently not well, although Margaret could not insult her more than by trying to save her, or by taking any care of her. They could hear of no girl to assist her;all were at work in the factories; at least, those who applied were well scolded by Dixon, for thinking that such as they could ever be trusted to work in a gentleman's house. So they had to keep a charwoman in almost constant employ. Margaret longed to send for Charlotte; but besides the objection of her being a better servant than they could now afford to keep, the distance was too great. Mr. Hale met with several pupils, recommended to him by Mr. Bell, or by the more immediate influence of Mr. Thornton. They were mostly of the age when many boys would be still at school, but, according to the prevalent, and apparently well-founded notions of Milton, to make a lad into a good tradesman he must be caught young, and acclimated to the life of the mill, or office, or warehouse. If he were sent to even the Scotch Universities, he came back unsettled for commercial pursuits; how much more so if he went to Oxford or Cambridge, where he could not be entered till he was eighteen? So most of the manufacturers placed their sons in sucking situations'

at fourteen or fifteen years of age, unsparingly cutting away all off-shoots in the direction of literature or high mental cultivation, in hopes of throwing the whole strength and vigour of the plant into commerce. Still there were some wiser parents; and some young men, who had sense enough to perceive their own deficiencies, and strive to remedy them. Nay, there were a few no longer youths, but men in the prime of life, who had the stern wisdom to acknowledge their own ignorance, and to learn late what they should have learnt early. Mr. Thornton was perhaps the oldest of Mr.

Hale's pupils. He was certainly the favourite. Mr. Hale got into the habit of quoting his opinions so frequently, and with such regard, that it became a little domestic joke to wonder what time, during the hour appointed for instruction, could be given to absolute learning, so much of it appeared to have been spent in conversation. Margaret rather encouraged this light, merry way of viewing her father's acquaintance with Mr. Thornton, because she felt that her mother was inclined to look upon this new friendship of her husband's with jealous eyes. As long as his time had been solely occupied with his books and his parishioners, as at Helstone, she had appeared to care little whether she saw much of him or not; but now that he looked eagerly forward to each renewal of his intercourse with Mr. Thornton, she seemed hurt and annoyed, as if he were slighting her companionship for the first time. Mr. Hale's over-praise had the usual effect of over-praise upon his auditors; they were a little inclined to rebel against Aristides being always called the Just. After a quiet life in a country parsonage for more than twenty years, there was something dazzling to Mr. Hale in the energy which conquered immense difficulties with ease; the power of the machinery of Milton, the power of the men of Milton, impressed him with a sense of grandeur, which he yielded to without caring to inquire into the details of its exercise.

But Margaret went less abroad, among machinery and men; saw less of power in its public effect, and, as it happened, she was thrown with one or two of those who, in all measures affecting masses of people, must be acute sufferers for the good of many. The question always is, has everything been done to make the sufferings of these exceptions as small as possible?

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 柯南之陪你

    柯南之陪你

    小兰让我们一起等待他们的到来吧,你的新一,我的……PS:作者很笨,请轻松吐槽
  • 神战破天

    神战破天

    “我只想做一个平凡的人,奈何你们就是要逼我做神,做一个自在的神也就罢了,却还要逼得我让神魔畏惧,站在这苦寒的巅峰。”斗11,清龙组,破虚空,成就人间传奇。收魔族小弟,杀修者奸邪,树昆仑仙境不败丰碑。联合龙组,大战神魔联军,斩杀魔君,流放神王,创造神界巅峰。
  • 天书至尊

    天书至尊

    少年易阳魂穿异界,幸好有一页天书在手,助他武破无上巅峰!绝世法宝是我的!仙家宝物还是我的!修无上神功,睡最美圣女,成天地至尊!
  • 北栀凉,思南暖

    北栀凉,思南暖

    她如同灰姑娘一般的存在,父亲在母亲车祸后带进一个后妈和两个继女,然而在父亲病逝后她的噩梦来临了,他的出现,似是救她脱离苦海,然而他生性多疑,一次误会,因为不信任离开了她,但离开后才发现根本忘不了她,两年后的回归,他却发现她只当他是陌生人,他重新出现在她的生活中变得竭斯底理!“爱恨的了距离,到底有多远?”“那不过是一根线的距离,我们只是很不幸的跨越那条线,将爱沦为了恨!”
  • 血样年华

    血样年华

    谁的青春没有梦?谁的青春不悸动?终有一天这个世界将被我们所掌控,因为我们还年轻!
  • 一往无回

    一往无回

    修行之路,一往无回。若为情故,不入轮回。
  • 灵恋无果花溅泪

    灵恋无果花溅泪

    一个是灵界继承者,一个是半人半灵,没有情爱。儿时相识,这场爱恨情仇该如何选择。
  • 纯青春

    纯青春

    关于过去的种种,现在想想不过云烟,感动过我的也许是那些小事,但却给我人生划下了一道美丽的颜色
  • 灭世气尊

    灭世气尊

    气破九州云帆动,孤刃独行苦成魔。血雨成波终不悔,回望苍生屠遍佛。
  • 北京生活秀

    北京生活秀

    他叫黄正阳,一个纯真朴素的广西男孩,他有一个简单的梦想,就是成为一名作家。为了实现理想,他满怀着希望一路北上广,但是迫于生活的压力,他必须带着梦想一起工作,和一边学习,并且在一线城市里落脚扎根。刚开始和大多数人的经历并没有什么大不同,也许都会遇到茫然,或者各种烦心事,但是作为一名普通人,谁又能避免得了,只能慢慢的去适应,去接受一切的事物。然而生活的平凡与苦涩,并没有让他气馁,知道自己要走的路还很远,如果自己都不自信,那又何谈实现愿望。于是他明白了一些常识问题,用信念去对待生活,把每一天都过得充实有意义,并且把经历写成故事。最终克服种种困难。经过不懈的努力,他最后又将获得一份怎样的幸福呢?