登陆注册
15317200000141

第141章

They waited for the tramcar.Ursula sat on top and looked out on the town.The dusk was just dimming the hollows of crowded houses.

`And are they going to inherit the earth?' she said.

`Yes -- they.'

`Then what are we going to do?' she asked.`We're not like them -- are we? We're not the meek?'

`No.We've got to live in the chinks they leave us.'

`How horrible!' cried Ursula.`I don't want to live in chinks.'

`Don't worry,' he said.`They are the children of men, they like market-places and street-corners best.That leaves plenty of chinks.'

`All the world,' she said.

`Ah no -- but some room.'

The tramcar mounted slowly up the hill, where the ugly winter-grey masses of houses looked like a vision of hell that is cold and angular.They sat and looked.Away in the distance was an angry redness of sunset.It was all cold, somehow small, crowded, and like the end of the world.

`I don't mind it even then,' said Ursula, looking at the repulsiveness of it all.`It doesn't concern me.'

`No more it does,' he replied, holding her hand.`One needn't see.One goes one's way.In my world it is sunny and spacious --'

`It is, my love, isn't it?' she cried, hugging near to him on the top of the tramcar, so that the other passengers stared at them.

`And we will wander about on the face of the earth,' he said, `and we'll look at the world beyond just this bit.'

There was a long silence.Her face was radiant like gold, as she sat thinking.

`I don't want to inherit the earth,' she said.`I don't want to inherit anything.'

He closed his hand over hers.

`Neither do I.I want to be disinherited.'

She clasped his fingers closely.

`We won't care about anything, ' she said.

He sat still, and laughed.

`And we'll be married, and have done with them,' she added.

Again he laughed.

`It's one way of getting rid of everything,' she said, `to get married.'

`And one way of accepting the whole world,' he added.

`A whole other world, yes,' she said happily.

`Perhaps there's Gerald -- and Gudrun --' he said.

`If there is there is, you see,' she said.`It's no good our worrying.

We can't really alter them, can we?'

`No,' he said.`One has no right to try -- not with the best intentions in the world.'

`Do you try to force them?' she asked.

`Perhaps,' he said.`Why should I want him to be free, if it isn't his business?'

She paused for a time.

`We can't make him happy, anyhow,' she said.`He'd have to be it of himself.'

`I know,' he said.`But we want other people with us, don't we?'

`Why should we?' she asked.

`I don't know,' he said uneasily.`One has a hankering after a sort of further fellowship.'

`But why?' she insisted.`Why should you hanker after other people?

Why should you need them?'

This hit him right on the quick.His brows knitted.

`Does it end with just our two selves?' he asked, tense.

`Yes -- what more do you want? If anybody likes to come along, let them.

But why must you run after them?'

His face was tense and unsatisfied.

`You see,' he said, `I always imagine our being really happy with some few other people -- a little freedom with people.'

She pondered for a moment.

`Yes, one does want that.But it must happen.You can't do anything for it with your will.You always seem to think you can force the flowers to come out.People must love us because they love us -- you can't make them.'

`I know,' he said.`But must one take no steps at all? Must one just go as if one were alone in the world -- the only creature in the world?'

`You've got me,' she said.`Why should you need others? Why must you force people to agree with you? Why can't you be single by yourself, as you are always saying? You try to bully Gerald -- as you tried to bully Hermione.You must learn to be alone.And it's so horrid of you.You've got me.And yet you want to force other people to love you as well.You do try to bully them to love you.And even then, you don't want their love.'

His face was full of real perplexity.

`Don't I?' he said.`It's the problem I can't solve.I know Iwant a perfect and complete relationship with you: and we've nearly got it -- we really have.But beyond that.Do I want a real, ultimate relationship with Gerald? Do I want a final, almost extra-human relationship with him -- a relationship in the ultimate of me and him -- or don't I?'

She looked at him for a long time, with strange bright eyes, but she did not answer.

同类推荐
热门推荐
  • 决裂苍穹

    决裂苍穹

    亘古有至尊,其名盘古氏,又曰盘古大帝,开天辟地,身化宇宙星河,从此诞生了万古洪荒,诸神先圣;有一生灵一朝顿悟,从此知晓天地有道,大道有缺,便于三十三重天外传道先圣,进而开启了仙神时代,然时至今日,仙神绝迹,道法不存,悠悠上古,是什么终结了一个辉煌的时代,什么样的灾祸致使先圣陨落,星河暗淡……易初只是一个平凡的地球人,却因为一个意外血脉返祖,走上了修行之路,一步步变得强大,一步步揭开了太古时代诸神黄昏的内幕,从一个普通的凡人开始,强大到诸天万族都知道他来自一个名为地球的生命之星,其上诞生过无数圣贤,更是万族之祖地
  • 葵花向阳生

    葵花向阳生

    她说,你是什么时候喜欢上我的,一见钟情;那你是什么时候想娶我的,一笑倾城;我是地上的葵花,你是天上的太阳,没有了你我无以为生,没有了我你还是最璀璨夺目的是不是?“阳哥哥,不是不勇敢,我们之间何止是三万英尺的距离,请记得就算世界上所有的陆地最终会沉入海底,也请你记得,有个叫云葵的小姑娘无声的,爱过你。”“小葵,不要怕,我所有的笃定,皆因是你,情深若如初心,人生若如初见,我所有的执着只因为你是我心上永远笑开的花。”向逸阳的陪伴是最长情的告白,付云葵的相守是最温暖的承诺。
  • 仇恨的爱情

    仇恨的爱情

    一个富家少爷和一个拥有血族法力的美少女在一起车祸中相遇,就因为这场车祸,让本身是血族继承人的她失去了法力,被血族人赶了出来,从此她对那位富家少爷恨之入骨,所以,她来到了城市努力学习,考进了那位少爷的学校,一场巨大的阴谋展开了。。
  • 人皮论语

    人皮论语

    中国文化第一历史悬案,历史的河道在秦汉陡然弯转,百家争鸣绝声,纵横游侠隐踪。儒家虽被汉武独尊,却也难逃被阉割的命运。挖掘两千年历史淤泥,钻探中国人精神古墓。逆推出一场控扼两千年命运的骇人阴谋。惊天秘密层层揭开,七十五次剧情急转,每三千字一道波澜。最勇敢的历史小说,最刺心的民族悲歌。
  • 帮助孩子成长的哲理与智慧

    帮助孩子成长的哲理与智慧

    孩子正处于成长期,在学习和生活中会遇到很多问题,也会有很多迷惑。父母需要的是给孩子讲解一些人生中的哲理与智慧,让孩子通晓事理,提升孩子的智慧,为孩子指点迷津,帮助孩子更好地成长。孩子明事理有智慧,才能自我解疑解惑,才能正确待人接物,才能获取快乐与成功。
  • 诸夏风云录

    诸夏风云录

    服章之美谓之华,礼仪之大谓之夏。孤独的旅客行走在异域,努力的留下属于自己的刻印。带着大家走进帝国的传记。
  • 铁血

    铁血

    在摇曳的红高梁之间,在情欲勃勃的乡村田野,一群热血青年过着悠游自在的日子突然,一群土匪的到来,打破了这种宁静,让他们在仇恨的同时,又夹杂着羡慕的眼光。在面对外族侵略的关口,后生们和土匪都拿起枪,无论是血性的汉子,还是柔弱的女子,都尽情挥洒着东北人勇猛刚烈的一面他们悲壮地大笑,惨烈地死亡,用生命捍卫了中国人的尊严面对日军的杀戮,他们挺起了比别人更硬的脊梁。
  • 追到手就绝不放

    追到手就绝不放

    一个可爱又活泼的小女孩和一个帅气又不失温柔,腹黑又不失呆萌的男孩的情起故事!
  • 功德之狱

    功德之狱

    星辰大陆,以武为尊。有强大的武者,力可搬山,气可填海;更有甚者,统驭诸天,镇压万古。少年王阳,带着来自未知的一所监狱,定要在这踏入那至尊的宝座。
  • 英雄联盟之尖端对决

    英雄联盟之尖端对决

    全球尖端英雄联盟冠亚军争夺赛,最关键时刻,中队主力选手楚浪忽然猝死。当楚浪再次醒来的时,却发现自己穿越到另一世界,一个英雄联盟覆盖全球的潮流的世界。在这里只要你的LOL操作技术够犀利,完全可以养家糊口、发家致富,甚至能成为全球一线明星。而且这个世界人们过于重视团队配合,忽略个人技术!以致版本差异。AP的剑圣、一秒五刀的剑姬,光速QA的瑞文,回旋踢的盲僧等等,在这里都还没出现过!当AP装的剑圣开始无限Q,对面在默契的配合也犹如虚构,当一秒五刀的剑姬出场,对手会震惊的发现自己已死!当光速QA的瑞文爆发,对面会感到真正的无力。回旋踢的盲僧来去自如,好吧!快点投降……楚浪带着前世最强大师的技术实力,进入校园……带领着小伙伴们,开始了一步步登上世界舞台的路途。